therapy

Mar. 5th, 2015 06:00 am
metaphortunate: (fooled you again brain)
[personal profile] metaphortunate
Today I plan to talk to my therapist about happiness.

My kids often make me happy. My husband often makes me happy. My problem is that I have realized that I love it when my kids or my husband make me happy; but whenever anything else makes me happy - and there are a shitload of things in the world that could make me happy: gardening, seeing friends, reading books quietly by myself, opera, masturbation, new clothes, massage, rock concerts, a haircut, taking the time to write a post like this: I feel guilty. Because I am taking time and/or energy and/or money that should be spent either on the kids or on Mr. E or on sleep or exercise so that I can be more physically and emotionally able to be a good partner and mother. Seriously: being happy feels like stealing.

And then I wonder WHY I'M NOT HAPPY VERY MUCH.

I am looking forward to hearing what she has to say. [personal profile] hradzka, you would love the shit out of my therapist. Couple weeks ago I brought up some money stress that I've been having: there's this, but then there's that, here's how Mr. E and I are doing stuff, but I might want to change because this other thing, blah blah blah.

She listened carefully to everything I said, then said, "Sounds like you guys need to set up a new bank account. Because then this thing, and this other thing."

I said, "Yeah, that would solve this problem…but ehhh, we haven't done it because awkward, and these feelings, and I have these other feelings."

And she was like "Okay, but your feelings are dumb and boring. What would fix the problem is if you addressed it, like by setting up a new bank account."

And the thing is, because I have been crazy for so long, my feelings ARE dumb and boring! Even I am sick of dealing with them! Of course she did not actually say anything so hurtful. But she was clearly uninterested in noodling around in my ~feelings~ for ages and instead was very clear about the benefits of addressing the problem with an idea for a solution.

Which I did not want to do, because money is hard to talk about. But the great thing about a therapist, as opposed to a self-help book or something like that, is that I could not face going back to her and admitting that yeah, you and I talked about a solution, but I could not bring it up and prefer to remain stressed out about money. Couldn't do it. Instead I sucked it up and talk to Mr. E and we have come up with a solution that we like for now: it is not the same one that my therapist came up with, it is one that works for us better, but we would not have done it if she hadn't given me the kick in the butt.

And I feel better.

Sirens Reading Challenge!!

Mar. 5th, 2015 12:43 pm
starlady: Peggy in her hat with her back turned under the SSR logo (agent carter)
[personal profile] starlady
I feel like longtime readers of this platform will already be aware of my love for the Sirens Conference, which is focused on girls, women, and female-identifying people in fantasy and science fiction--with a particular focus on YA--as readers, writers, and characters. It's in Denver this year, and Yoon Ha Lee, Rae Carson, and Kate Elliott are the guests! You should join us, it's going to be awesome.

This year Sirens has formalized an attendees' version of the staff reading lists as the Sirens Reading Challenge. I am historically very good at winning books and at book-related challenges, and this year's theme--Rebels--is near and dear to my heart, so I am doubly excited for this.

List below the cut; I've copied the links from the Sirens webpage to preserve the partner links to the Tattered Cover, Denver's independent bookstore. Bolded = already read.

I am so excited. )
It's going to be great.

Wednesday Reading Meme

Mar. 4th, 2015 03:27 pm
wintercreek: A stack of books, the top one open. ([misc] addicted to the written word)
[personal profile] wintercreek
Okay, I haven't done one of these in ONE AND A HALF YEARS (free time, I miss you), but I can do one now, so let's go!

What I just finished reading

The first seven chapters of The Royal We by Heather Cocks and Jessica Morgan. The authors are the Fuggirls (of Go Fug Yourself) and this is their third book, the story of an American who meets a British prince while doing study abroad at Oxford and seems to be about to marry him. (I say seems to be because the book opens the day before her wedding when there's some kind of crisis afoot ... and then flashes back to their first meeting and goes forward from there.)

The book doesn't come out until April, but the first seven chapters are available for free as a preview. I will DEFINITELY be reading this when it comes out; I already know from fandom that commoner-marrying-royalty-(OR-NOT?!?!) is one of my bulletproof kinks.

What I'm reading now

The Life-Changing Magic of Tidying Up by Marie Kondo. As someone (I think [personal profile] laceblade?) noted, there's some classist assumptions in this book - the whole thread of "Just get rid of it! If you miss it, then you know you really do use it and you can go buy a new one!" However, generally the book is really appealing to me and I'll be trying the author's techniques when I get a block of time available for sorting. I particularly like the emphasis on recognizing when something has already served its role in your life and doesn't need to be kept any longer - perhaps in some cases the experience of buying the item, or of using it once or twice, was all you needed from it. Now let it go!

What I'm reading next

Probably Jesus: A Pilgrimage by James Martin. Because I like James Martin's work and I'm intrigued by the premise of his Jesuit perspective on melding both the religious and the historical Jesus. Also it's the next thing in my pile.

Fanfic I've read recently

Inspired by that fanart going around on Tumblr, I (like a lot of people, probably), just read United States v. Barnes, 617 F. Supp. 2d 143 (D.D.C. 2015) by [archiveofourown.org profile] fallingvoices and [archiveofourown.org profile] radialarch, and cross this river to the other side by [archiveofourown.org profile] defcontwo. They're both media fic about Bucky on trial for his acts as the Winter Soldier, both Steve/Bucky, both lovely in their own ways. The email from Thor in US v. Barnes is particularly lodged in my mind and heart.
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[personal profile] umadoshi
[personal profile] balsamandash gave me a few prompt options, including "Talk about Toby/Newsflesh crossovers. Or Incryptid/Newsflesh crossovers. Or Indexing/Newsflesh crossovers. Other Seanan/Mira media and Newsflesh, cross the streams."

I spent a while before I started this post thinking about whether Newsflesh can comfortably fuse with any of Seanan's other work but InCryptid in my head (emphasis on in my head; if anyone else crossed it with any of her other worlds, I would pounce on it), but nothing else clicks conceptually for me. My brain doesn't want to interlock the Newsflesh worldbuilding with the magic in Toby's world, or with the rather different mad science in Parasitology, and so on.

But InCryptid is internally scientific enough that it's all about creatures existing quietly alongside us naturally, so I can sort of work with that. Which is understating things, given that my Newsflesh/InCryptid crossover where Georgia and Shaun meet the Aeslin mice is one of my very favorite things that I've ever written (and is far and away the most widely-clicked thing I have on AO3, which amuses me). So that opens up all kinds of possibilities--albeit more for other people than for me, probably. There's literally a whole world alongside the known one, mostly hidden from everyone but cryptozoologists and the occasional person who stumbles over a cryptid and a) notices and b) lives to tell the tale.

For the record, this remains one of my favorite exchanges that I have ever written in any fandom/medium, and since it's relevant, I'm going to shamelessly drop it here: but not so shamelessly that I won't put it under a cut. 170 words under here )
How the Rising would have affected various cryptid species is fascinating. InCryptid give us some impressive reptilian beasties like lindworms that might help keep the population of animal zombies in the wild at bay, and any species that can induce petrification could be handy (by which I probably just mean "have an improved chance of survival", since I doubt the presence of zombies would make them more likely to reveal themselves to the world at large; it might just make their small, insular communities seem even less suspicious to others).

And there's the question of whether some species would be susceptible to KA or not: outwardly part-mammal/part-bird griffins (who appear to be mammals, according to the Field Guide), or species like the wadjets, where the sexual dimorphism is so extreme that one gender appears mammalian and one appears reptilian. Or finfolk, with their peculiar life cycle...

Cuckoos...one shudders to think (and presumes they're not susceptible). Could they influence KA zombies? o_o

(Seanan has created a LOT of scary creatures across her worlds. For me, cuckoos rank pretty high in the "most terrifying" list. This in no way keeps Sarah from being my favorite InCryptid character. *g*)

So...yeah. Lots of possibilities there!

Personally, at the moment I have two ideas rolling around in my head (and have some wordcount for both, although they're both mentally filed away as "stuff I've written down but don't really expect to finish"). I have a few pages of Rose Marshall and Shaun Mason meeting each other, which would not be a long story if it were ever finished, and a handful of pages of Verity Price meeting Georgia and Shaun via some sort of time travel. (I have no idea how I would justify that, only that given the glimpses of other...dimensions?...we're given, it could surely be handwaved.) What I have involves Verity going forward in time; I also keep entertaining the idea of the Masons going back in time to NYC during the summer of the Rising (which would be horrifying in all kinds of ways for them, starting with the fact that yes, they're as crowd-socialized as it's possible for them to be in their world, but that would mean nothing compared to pre-Rising populations in a large city, and continuing with the fact that their brother would still be alive, and while KA itself would presumably still break out, they could be in a position to warn their parents somehow and save Phil's life, thus essentially guaranteeing that they'd never meet each other).

Neither version is ever likely to see the light of day (and there are ZERO words written on the latter). But it would be interesting, for all that in many ways it'd be more a case of the transplanted character(s) trying to deal with the vastly different world, as opposed to an exploration of cryptids.
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Both done in 0.1 and 0.5 Artline Drawing System pens on illustration board.


Ayi-Ig - Elder Goddess in the Cthulhu mythos, for the She Walks in Shadows anthology, which is a kickstarted anthology of stories deriving from the Lovecraft universe, which features short stories and illustrations all produced by women, along with women editors.

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Wirt and the Owl. Some Over the Garden Wall fanart. This was the test-run for that ^^^ lol.

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[Art] Sketches.

Mar. 4th, 2015 09:13 pm
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[personal profile] moonvoice
I've been doing a 'sketch a day' thing (which is more like 'an idle sketch when I feel like it') but mostly just to stop myself from getting too rusty. Most of them are pretty naff, which is why I'm putting the one I actually like above the cut, lol.

All done in graphite over pastels on cartridge paper, because I wanted to use a medium that wouldn't let me erase my lines as I went, forcing me to find other ways to compensate for mistakes.

I tried to take less than 10 minutes for all of them.


sighthound

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three more under the cut )
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[personal profile] voleuse
Books:
Dept. of Speculation, Jenny Offill
The American Plate: A Culinary History in 100 Bites, Libby H. O'Connell
Stone Mattress: Nine Tales, Margaret Atwood
The Bone Clocks, David Mitchell
Bookmark Now: Writing in Unreaderly Times, Kevin Smokler, ed.
Redeployment, Phil Klay
A Brief History of Seven Killings, Marlon James
Wittgenstein Jr, Lars Iyer
Those Who Leave and Those Who Stay, Elena Ferrante
Silence once Begun, Jesse Ball
Everything I Never Told You, Celeste Ng
An Untamed State, Roxane Gay
Adam, Ariel Schrag
What If?, Randall Munroe
Pirate King, Laurie R. King
The Shadow Hero (graphic novel), Gene Luen Yang & Sonny Liew
The Walking Dead, Book Eight (graphic novel), Robert Kirkman & Charlie Adlard
The Walking Dead, Book Nine (graphic novel), Robert Kirkman & Charlie Adlard
The Walking Dead, Book Ten (graphic novel), Robert Kirkman & Charlie Adlard
Find Me, Laura van den Berg
McGlue, Ottessa Moshfegh
A Brave Man Seven Storeys Tall, Will Chancellor

Comics:
Black Widow #14
X-Men Forever #5 - 8
X-Men Origins: Emma Frost #1
X-Men Origins: Iceman #1

TV Episodes:
The 100 2.12 - 2.14
Brooklyn Nine-Nine 2.15
Cougar Town 6.05, 6.06
Elementary 3.15
Forever 1.16
Fringe 2.16, 2.17
The Good Wife 6.13
How to Get Away with Murder 1.10
Lost Girl 4.06, 4.07
Marvel's Agent Carter 1.06 - 1.08
The Mindy Project 3.15
The Nightly Show with Larry Wilmore 1.11 - 1.13
Scandal 4.10
Star Trek: Deep Space Nine 4.16 - 4.18

A small heap of linkspam

Mar. 3rd, 2015 11:17 pm
umadoshi: (InCryptid - Heroic Stand)
[personal profile] umadoshi
Tom McRae has announced his next album, due out in May. *^^* "Speaking of the departure from his previous, more stripped back albums, Tom says: 'as we recorded the album I had the image of the band gathered round a piano in a post-apocalyptic bar, singing our hearts out as the fires rage around us... also handily blocking the exits and stopping the crowd from leaving.' That the album is released on the eve of the UK General election is also no coincidence. 'We're sleep walking into a world ruled by oligarchs, where tech giants monitor and exploit our every thought, where governments and banks collude against us, and hyper-caffeinated teenagers design software to destroy any remaining jobs', says McRae, expanding on just some of the record's subject matter. 'We're going to need something to sing along to when the shit finally comes down'."

The National Post (not a source I usually find myself linking): "Toronto tunnel mystery solved: Two ‘blue-collar guys’ dug hole for ‘man cave,’ police say."


Cute

"15+ Before-And-After Photos Of Cats Growing Up".

"23 Chubby Puppies Mistaken For Teddy Bears".

One of the cutest things I've seen on Tumblr in ages (and I say this as someone with an extensive "cute" tag!): this puppy trying to mimic its person's howl.

"20 hedgehogs who will make your day better".


Useful

Via Twitter: this page on the IMDb lets you search two shows/movies for people who've worked on both, or search two people's info to see if they've worked on anything together.

At the OTW, "10 Fair Use Misconceptions".

At Baking Bites: "How to Use Tea in Baked Goods".


Social Justice

I loved [personal profile] thefourthvine's recent post on women (or people in general) supporting each other: "Team Angry Cat".

At the Daily Dot: "The one basic thing men still don't seem to understand about women".

Via many people, David Gerrold, a writer from Star Trek: TOS, responds to someone's complaints about social justice destroying sci-fi. "I was there. I know what Gene Roddenberry envisioned. He went on at length about it in almost every meeting. He wasn't about technology, he was about envisioning a world that works for everyone, with no one and nothing left out. Gene Roddenberry was one of the great Social Justice Warriors. You don't get to claim him or his show as a shield of virtue for a cause he would have disdained. […] Star Trek was about social justice from day one -- the stories were about the human pursuit for a better world, a better way of being, the next step up the ladder of sentience. The stories weren't about who we were going to fight, but who we were going to make friends with. It wasn't about defining an enemy -- it was about creating a new partnership. That's why when Next Gen came along, we had a Klingon on the bridge."

As he did last year, author Jim Hines has been hosting a series of posts from various people on different aspects of representation. This year's first post is "Exponentially Hoping", by Merc Rustad, and there doesn't seem to be a tag for the essays. But there've been a few so far, and while it looks like this week there aren't any guest posts scheduled, there will be more coming up.

Via Facebook: "Think of the children" at Queer Femme Mama, in response to the updated health and sex education curriculum in Ontario and to Senator Donald Plett's transphobic amendment to Bill C-279 that, as the post says, "effectively bar[s] trans people from public bathrooms". "Because whether I like it or not, being a parent lends me some sort of credibility and authority to speak on issues that are relevant to children. And it gives me an opportunity to disrupt the bigots who use ridiculous “think of the children” logic to deny people’s human rights and promote discrimination."

Anti-Procrastination Tuesday 3/3/15

Mar. 3rd, 2015 10:46 am
lizcommotion: Lily (buff tabby) asking for belly rubs on an oriental rug in a sunbeam, whiskers in happy face pose. Head upside down. (cat lily basking icon)
[personal profile] lizcommotion posting in [community profile] bitesizedcleaning
Is there something you've been procrastinating on? Something that really needs must be done, but is kind of a pain in the tuckus? Today's challenge is to do That Thing.

Go team, go! We can do it together!

NOTE: Optional 5 minute challenge for those who just do not have the brains for this challenge, because it is just too much. (Which is totally okay.) Make your bed! It's always cheery, looks tidier, and in my case maybe the tiny!cat with endless energy will stop attacking the folds in the blankets because there won't be as many folds to attack.

Meme

Mar. 2nd, 2015 04:47 pm
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[personal profile] umadoshi
I'm colder and more tired than seems at all reasonable, but since Kas is on his way to pick me up for movie-going, I'll have to hope that bundling up warmly and being away from my desk will take care of both problems.

But seriously, it's warmer outside than it has been (not warm, just better) in a while, and I even turned the heat up a bit in my office, so I'm very puzzled about feeling chilled to the bones.

*shivers*

A meme that's going around, because why not?

If you could have me write a fic specifically for you, what would it be like? Fandom, characters/pairing, genre, plot elements, kinks (if applicable)... what's your ideal fic from me?

(no subject)

Mar. 2nd, 2015 06:35 am
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[personal profile] copperbadge
Good morning everyone, and welcome to Radio Free Monday!

Ways To Give:

[livejournal.com profile] leahnari linked to a fundraiser for her cousin, whose brain tumor metastasized to other organs, requiring chemo to fight it. They're raising money for day to day expenses, especially since she (as the breadwinner of the family) is now out of work while she receives treatment. You can read more and help the family out here.

[livejournal.com profile] tinkcph linked to a fundraiser for Ky Peterson, an African-American trans man who was sexually assaulted and has been imprisoned for killing his attacker in self-defense. He's raising money to cover legal fees to cover his legal change of gender and work for his release; you can read more and help Ky get justice here.

[tumblr.com profile] fira211's sister is approved to study in China, but with her boyfriend losing his job due to mental health issues, she needs help to offset costs and get to China. You can read more at Fira's post here and support Ashley's studies here.

[tumblr.com profile] jeandrawsstuff linked to a fundraiser for her friend Alix's cat, Jasper, who has had a couple of health issues recently, including emergency vet visits for feline asthma and is raising money to offset veterinary costs and medication. You can read more and help out here.

And this has been Radio Free Monday! Thank you for your time. You can post items for my attention at the Radio Free Monday submissions form or via email at copperbadge at gmail dot com. If you're not sure how to proceed, here is a little more about what I do and how you can help (or ask for help!).

End-of-weekend mishmash

Mar. 2nd, 2015 01:56 am
umadoshi: (introvert)
[personal profile] umadoshi
--Ordering Chinese for dinner: excellent. Kas making super-lemony lemon loaf, some of which was had while watching TV at Chez [personal profile] wildpear: also excellent. The combination did, however, result in the thought of even having tea when I got home making my tummy say "NOPE". Which is fine and all, but...tea. >.> I think some part of my subconscious truly believes tea doesn't physically take up any room.

--Tonight we finished season 1 of Leverage. *^^* (New to everyone there but me, other than [personal profile] scruloose having seen a handful of scattered episodes.)

--After literally (IIRC) not leaving the house for a week (since errands last Saturday afternoon), I ventured out last night and again tonight, and plan to go out twice tomorrow (for the dentist in the afternoon and Jupiter Ascending with Kas in the evening). As I said earlier to [personal profile] seascribe, my hermit status is suddenly threatened!

And naturally, the day I have plans is the first day it's supposed to snow in at least a few days. Fortunately neither plan involves taking transit. (Spring can come ANY TIME now. Just throwing that out there. >.<) The ice on our street is about an inch thick in places, I'd guess, while the surface is bare in others. At least tomorrow's weather isn't expected to be a storm or anything, but we really don't need any more snow.

(Coincidentally, the photos in this tweet from [twitter.com profile] hfxtraffic show a side street we were on last night. The main streets in Halifax aren't too bad, other than being alarmingly narrowed by snowbanks, but the side streets aren't pretty.)

--I haven't started reading anything new in a few days because a) I spent Friday evening mainlining six episodes of Person of Interest (I'm now caught up on all of my current/active shows except Parks and Recreation) and b) I was waffling about whether I could fit a new novel in before rereading Half-Off Ragnarok (the third InCryptid novel) in preparation for Pocket Apocalypse coming out this week. Possibly I could have, but I can't now, so hopefully I can get started on that reread soon. (Although I didn't pay for speedy shipping on the order of three copies of Pocket Apocalypse--when I did that for Unmade last fall it went poorly--so mostly I'm hoping the order arrives by the end of the week. [That would be copies for me, Kas, and [personal profile] wildpear, not three copies for me.])

--Good luck facing Monday, everyone.
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